Friday, December 4, 2009

Divided


We have waited far to long...as creation groans so does this deep sigh weigh greatly on our hearts. Great lengths seperate us from eternity; a massive chasm which has been so inconceivably longed after. Such wanderlust for God. To see the distance and hunger to sojourn towards Him. But we are skeletons with no muscle much to weak to lift our eyes. Dare I say, I think He should cross the divide. Dare I say He has. My weak heart needs a lullaby to soothe the scald. My mind needs a peace that speaks louder than the doubt. My body is to feeble and my confidence shatters at every painful encounter. My God, My God am I forsaken? Or is my trust enough? I sit amoungst desolation with the hope that you will raise me up.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Que Sera Sera


The Lark:
Deeper still the dark draws closer.
The light that was now dims and shimmers to a fade.
With this my hope, my love,
dies with the days adieu.
The moon glares then prods my wound.
But lo, the sun shines bright
and the moon is but an allusion of false romantic hope.
The final throb of daylight.
Eternal golden star
why have you deserted your post?
Have I grown to old?
Have my childhood dreams bored you?
Or simply has our love become cold?
But I have loved you my ethereal envy!
Though you promise tomorrow,
you have left me lonesome!
Come back my honeyed wine!
Your warmth is gone,
your hands no longer caress,
your breath no longer lulls my neck,
your promise broke at dusk.
Your depth scared me
unnerved me at a glance.
See how I quaked?
See how I quivered?
Did you not see
the power you held over me?
But oh, how I have loved you!
Shall I ever hope for your return?
Que sera sera
whatever will be, will be
how can it be?
Yes, dear shining star!
Affectionate cosmic shade!
My love and attention is yours
do not forget,
never disdain!
I looked for you tonight,
peering towards the sky.
I hoped for you.
For when I find you,
I will find myself within you.
My weak heart,
lost in her longing
wished upon your twilight ballet.
I dreamt of you
and in our memory I rest in you.
The Sun:
Sleep silently dear Lark.
Do not yet fill the air with your beckon call!
For morning is coming
to awaken the dawn!
To give passion to your heart
a lightness to your wing
I will come.
You are my hope!
My weakness and craving!
Hold still, stay quiet.
My shameless ambition is to taste your sugared mouth!
Take and deal with me as you desire,
for my love is solely yours!
I bend for you!
Eternally I come for you!
My pulse quickens
you flutter away with my heart!
Darling Lark!
You flirt with your eyes.
You dance with your words.
You peirce my soul
and steal away my love!
For I am yours in the morning twilight,
I am yours in the ebb of day,
I am yours in the milk of the stars.
But in the moonlight I can not help but fade.
Alight in the morning,
ascend to me.
Rise up my darling
and sing to me your sweetest melody!
Arise!
Let me embrace your affections!
Arise!
Let us whisper our love to the horizon!
Arise!
Ascend to the sky!
The Lark:
You came softly in the crystal morning
your passion stirred me,
awakened my soul within her deep corridors.
How I have loved you!
Needed you,
Craved you,
Wanted you!
But you will leave
and I will wait the night.
With cruelty the moon will haunt me,
quick to mock my lonely heart!
My ache for you grew strong!
I cried out your name without reply.
I could not suppress myself,
I could no longer repress myself.
I have been decieved
my heart had been tricked.
Like a moth to the flame,
I thought I heard your voice.
My heart bound,
I took to the sky.
The snare captured me,
surrounded me.
And as the morning comes,
I remember you.
With clipped wings I sing.
Restrained by cage
yet my heart will not still.
This love can never die.
We,
we who were,
we can no longer be.
I am cloaked with a dark veil
and you ride the vault of heaven.
Que sera sera.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Momentary Lapse of Fates


Like a child who stumbled to the ground
Do I stick out my chin pretend I am fine and grin?

To scared to stay
To scared to run
Broken vessels
Empty promises

Did I love you
Or do I love the memory of you?

Alice, Alice hold out your hands.
Drink this potion and find a man.
Swirling, twirling into this hole.
Quickly, quickly you have to be bold.

The time is short
You're rather old.

To gamble with a card of hearts
You pushed
Momentary lapse of fates
I fell

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Midnight Drummer


I remember the rythym of your beating heart
Though now you have departed
Forsaken- I am trapped in my suffering
For this rhythm is now mine.
My body aches for your touch
The simple complexities of your skin
This reminder is a midnight drummer
I hear you: I feel you
The curl of your lip
The heat of your breath
The tease of your hands
The depth of your eyes
Memories of you I can not escape
They suffocate me in my melancholy
How can I forget you?
When the beat your heart is mine.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Sober



Now this plague of fear
sobers me to my depths
A question I can not ignore.
Do little girls
with hope that grows like ivy on garden gates;
become women
with bitterness like the rind of lemons?
How can I deny these fears are real
that little girls hope in love
only to become bitter upon its failure.